Waiting on The Day

The Image of Motherhood

This is the image that will forever be etched in my mind of how motherhood looks and feels. The woman holding her precious bundle of joy while they both embrace each other. She stands by the window as the mercy of God’s presence shines on her life. This is the day that I am waiting, praying, hoping, and yearning for. This painting is the image that has been sitting on my mothers wall since I was a little girl. I remember my mom telling me why she loves this portrait so much, “because I love being a mommy”. In that moment I knew that no matter what I would do in this life I would one day love being a mommy just like her. It would never cross my mind that I would ever struggle with bringing life into this world. Today when I go to visit my mother this portrait still hangs there and as much anger, envy and sadness I’ve endured through this journey it gives me so much hope that one day I will hold my own baby just like this.

Waiting On The Day

We’re dedicated to giving you hope through the most difficult journeys anyone will have to go through. We want to encourage, uplift, and inform others about infertility and most of all share God’s grace through it all!

“I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all.” Eccelessiastes 9:11

Kylah Day

Who am I?

My name is Kylah Day and I am here to share my personal journey of infertility with you.

I was 26 years old and newly married when I got the news that I would have a difficult battle of becoming a mother naturally. At that time I was so uninformed about the infertility community and honestly I felt so much shame that I would have to be a part of it.

I want to give as much knowledge and support to others that was not available to me when I first began this journey in 2016.

During the day I am teaching 8th graders with mild learning disabilities in the Twin Cities. In the evening I am spending time with my wonderful husband of 7 years. We are both Christians and want to please God with our lives.

Our journey

My husband and I met each other as teenagers at the best ice cream joint in the world, Dairy Queen. He was there on my first week and as he introduced himself to me he showed me how to make the cookie dough blizzard. We later found out we attend the same high school, it’s a very large school by the way. We weren’t interested in dating one another but somehow we became very interested in each other and after becoming prom dates we became a couple. He taught me so many more things since that cookie dough blizzard and one of which was how to seek a deeper relationship with God. I’ve never met someone who had faith in the Lord like him. I learned that no matter what happened in this life the only thing that will last are the things I do in Christ. We both gave our lives to Christ and chose to dedicate ourselves to Him. We wanted to be married, raise Godly children and live a life that would exalt the name of the Lord.

We got married on August 2nd 2014 in front of all of our friends and family. This captured the start of a beautiful marriage that will last a lifetime. We knew that it wasn’t about us, but it was about what God wanted for us. We were both on fire for God and I can even remember selecting the song “I give myself away, so you can use me”, by William McDowell. I wanted to be used by God, but never in the way He had planned to use me.

Minnesota bound. Just two days later we would be moving to Minnesota to start our lives as newlyweds. We both wanted to wait a couple of years before having children and in retrospect I think we both regret that decision to get on birth control. After living in Minnesota for 1 year we moved to Ohio. I was 25 going on 26 and we both started to think about having children soon, especially me. Every Instagram post of babies gave me butterflies. Soon they became they only thing I thought about. That natural desire to produce and replicate ourselves grew larger by the day, I had baby fever so badly and I just knew that we were almost ready to try.

My story is a little different than most in the way that I really didn’t get to try to conceive before I found out there was a problem. Literally right before we decided to “let things happen” I had my annual woman doctors visit. Everything was fine as it had always been, but I did bring up one question that apparently brought her concern. I had regular periods and was in good health, but I had noticed spotting in between cycles since using BC which was a huge annoyance. She asked if I wanted to start having children and I so happily said “Yes!” She told me to make an appointment to a sonographer to be sure the spotting isn’t a sign of anything. She seemed pretty confident and not worried, so I scheduled my appointment and just kept thinking about starting a family soon. During the appointment the technician was so nice and I laid down as she put jelly on my belly to look inside and I felt like ooh this is what it would feel like to be pregnant. While she rubbed around my lower stomach she began to look as if she saw something, something that was not good. Afterward she said I would hear something back later that day or the next. I waited patiently for that phone call the rest of the day and no one called. My worry antennas were up so the next day I waited a few hours and couldn’t take it anymore. I called them and the doctor told me that they found a large mass on my right side that looked like it needed to be removed. I immediately went into panic mode, my chest pounding and the pen moving as fast as my heart. She said something about it could be an ectopic pregnancy so I needed to see a specialist ASAP. The phrase, “they found” has been said so many times throughout this journey I can’t even count.

This is the beginning of my journey to motherhood. I never thought it would be this hard, but so much has happened since 2016. I want to share all of it here with you. Here I will discuss every step of this journey that I have endured thus far with the help of the Lord.

To my family,

I have never wanted to share something so private like this not even to my own family. I really want those who know me and did not see all of what I was going through to understand that during those deepest and darkest moments I couldn’t bare to let you see me like that. I’m Kylah, I smile and laugh all the time. I simply was not strong enough to reach out. So at the moment I am compelled to share all of it with you now. I don’t want attention, pity, or praise. I only want God to be exalted and to open this door that I’ve held shut for so many years. I am no longer bound to infertility.

This is a list of topics I will be sharing with you!

  • Infertility
  • TTCing
  • Natural Remedies
  • Prayer/fasting
  • Emotional Breakdowns
  • Surgery
  • Endometriosis
  • Dermoid Cyst
  • Blocked Fallopian Tubes
  • Cancer
  • Healing
  • Marriage
  • Family
  • Friendships
  • Support
  • IVF
  • Hopelessness
  • Visions from God
  • Breakthroughs
  • Church
  • Holiday Blues
  • Baby Shower Blues
  • Insurance
  • Finances
  • Sacrifice
  • Hannah’s Prayer
  • Sarah and Abraham
  • Faith
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